27.6.15

Closer

Belakangan, banyak banget hubungan teman saya yang pacaran bertahun-tahun lamanya berakhir begitu saja. Oh well, mungkin nggak benar-benar "begitu saja" karena dibalik berakhirnya suatu hubungan, selalu ada segudang masalah dan pertimbangan. Di sisi lain, banyak juga teman saya yang tetap setia mempertahankan hubungannya meskipun berat, stuck, lelah, dan sebenarnya udah nggak mungkin diperjuangkan. So that I'm just wondering, how much it hurts?

Kalau bicara tentang seberapa parahnya luka hati (buat yang udah putus, maupun yang masih bertahan), jelas parah. Mengambil keputusan untuk bertahan atau melepaskan disaat semuanya udah sangat-dekat itu nggak mudah, dan (sedikit-banyak) pasti meninggalkan luka.
Ya, that too much will hurt you so much kan?
Logisnya, di usia twenty-something seperti ini, cinta saja nggak akan cukup buat mempertahankan suatu hubungan. Ada banyak pertimbangan lain. Tentang keluarga, prinsip, karir, dan masa depan. Ada kalanya harus menyerah dan mengalah pada keadaan. Ada kalanya juga harus kuat bertahan demi menunggu keajaiban yang akan menyelesaikan.
"Lalu, kenapa hubungan yang terlalu dekat akan menjadi complicated and left the uncomfortable feeling for us?"
Teman saya pernah bertanya seperti itu. And... I couldn't answer it properly. Semuanya masih baik-baik saja, sebelum makin dekat, makin lama, makin cinta, makin mendalam, yang sering berakhir dengan : makin menyakitkan.

Nggak bisa dipungkiri kalau semakin dekat dengan seseorang, secara nggak langsung kita udah "membagi" lebih dari separuh hidup kita buat orang itu. Kita tahu hampir semua hal tentang dirinya, keluarganya, kepribadian, karakter, bahkan sampai titik terendah dalam hidupnya. Pernah sadar nggak kalau kadang kita udah sejauh-itu masuk dalam kehidupan seseorang, dan sebaliknya? Pernah membayangkan sebesar apa kedekatan itu mampu mempengaruhi hidup seseorang?

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7.6.15

About Someone Who (Ever) Loved You

Someone who ever loved you might be the one who lost his feeling for you. He might be the one who loved and hurt you too deep, then leaving the unhealed wound inside. The wounds have transformed you a lot, so that you will never see the world the same way ever again.

You have a hard time to let him go. Because you just love him too much. You would be able to face the sadness of life. You would be able to feel the bitter pain. You might be broke. You might be lost.
But after all of this time, you will find yourself back. The stronger you are. The wiser you will be.
Then, after all the loneliness that you passed, he will come back. With a new hello. With a simple how are you. With a warm I miss you. It brings back the memories, the laughs, and the tears. So that you almost forget the pain, but he just stretch the scars.
Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra color. And the people there see you differently, too. Qoutes from : A hat full of sky 
So did you. You will see him differently. You may still love him, but there is something wrong inside. You might love and hate him with the similiar intensity. After all the ups and downs, long talks, and late night romance, he will go away. To the place where he belong. Leaving you with no goodbye.

No matter how sad and lonely you feel, he might just enjoy breaking your heart. One day, deep down you realize that coming back to where he started is not the same as never leaving. You can't always deal with some kind of come-and-go. You need someone to stay, completely, to hold your hand, and never leaving.

Not all the love will be worth fighting for. Someone who ever loved you may come back. But he can't stay. He will always have a special place in your heart. But it doesn't mean that you must have each other.

If it's meant to be, it will be. That's how the fate works. So you'll know that someday, whether he’s here or not, whether you end up with him or not, it doesn't really matter anymore–and it doesn't bother you at all. And you'll be fine, with or without him.


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