26.3.13

Stranger with Some Memories


Inspired by : 
a song titled 'I always remember you that way' -bowling for soup 




I met you. In a place where the wind whispered through. We started to talk a lot of things. It seemed like we missed something for years. I felt a little happiness when I see you smiled during our conversation. I hurt when your smile disappeared by some parts of your words. 

Suddenly you reached out and touched my hand. My heart was racing. I took your hands off.

"Sorry," I said without looking at you.

"It's okay. Everything had already changed, but feeling remained the same. I thought you felt it too,"

You said quietly. I could see the sadness in your eyes.

"It seemed like you were special for me. But I'm not sure.  Everything was strange for me.."

You took a long breath. You may blamed me for this things. I might forget about you or our memories before. I thought this was the first time I saw you, and for you, this was the first time we met after many years. I tried to remember and searched the memories which left behind. But a part of me didn't want to remember it. We kept silence for hours until the sky went dark.

"I should go home now," you broke the silences.

"Oh, me too." I answered.

"Okay, anyway, thanks a lot for your help,"

"What's help?" I asked.

I didn't remember what I've done for you before. You glanced a smile and didn't answer.

"Nice to see you, bye".

Then you walked away. I faintly heard you whispered a song's lyrics . 

I'll always remember you 
The years have gone 
The times have changed 
I don't recall much from those days 
I'll always remember you that way ...

And felt something rumbling in my heart. I felt the pain in my head when I forced to remember that song. I wanted to call you. But the pain in my head went worse. Damn. 

Suddenly, the other part of that lyrics remain in my head.

The moon and the stars , The back of my car 
That song that was on , The back of my car 
The memories are different 
But we felt the same
And I'll always remember you that way...

I didn't know what was the memories between us. There were pictures in my mind. You were left. And I was standing all alone. But it was blurred. I forced myself to remember.   
Hi stranger, Who were you? You just came and brought back memories. And what was the song? I felt loneliness inside the lyric. So irritating.
Always remember you...   
I'll always remember you..  
(always remember) 
I'll always remember you that way...


This song still haunted me. And my tears dropped so that I couldn't stop...

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10.3.13

An Evening Talk and A Piece of Dream


"I was reading book at the cafe. If you want to come, I will wait".

Hah? I was about to sleep when I read you messages. I wonder if you send the wrong message for me. Then I asked you to confirm.

"No, It's for you.  We could share anything here".

"Okay, I will go there, just wait for me". I replied.
 I needed someone to talk, then you asked for it
It seemed like you knew about what I want, or maybe, it was a trap of fate. I didn't expect too much for this thing, because I won't hurt so much.

I arrived at the cafe. It was so crowded there. I looked at every side of the cafe, then I found you. You were looked cool with the white shirt and headsets in your ears. I walked and took a seat in front of you.

"Hi, how long you had have been here?"

You took your headset off and smiled at me.

"For many hours, how was your day?"

"Nothing special" I faked a smile.

"Oh, I will discuss our business plans. So, I will give you a job for designing our brand," Then you told about the concept and the deadline.

"I accepted, because I want to increasing my ability in design,"

"You knew, your ability must be explored to this business. And sometimes, I wonder what my ability was? " You asked....

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4.3.13

Chapter 5 : Everything Back But You

I didn’t know what to think at this point. I must found myself again, and make a good start. I hate the way that I couldn’t give more happiness to the people around.

Now, I had started to get that old me back.
The one who was cheerful, optimistic, hopeful and happy.
The one who could make people smile without meaning to.
The one who could be trusted, the one who had have self-esteem, the one who could stand alone and not feel lonely. 
I needed me back. And finally I started getting back on track.

I didn't know whether I'm sad or happy. Somehow, I had letting go of things without even understanding what the hell happened. Everything had gone so quickly... even at the same time.

I had found myself but I still felt awfully empty. Like a half of me was disappear with your absences. I didn’t even let myself to have time to think things through, or to remember everything about you, or to know what  just changed and getting worse. I spent all the time by getting busy with school, making many business plans, or hanging out with friends.

There were some plan in my mind which waiting for me to make it real. I thought I will spend all the day for doing my best and make them come true.

I thought everything're back, and you. You come back as a best friend of mine. We started this friendship without looking at our past. It's better to know you as a friend, not an ex-lover. I don’t think things will value that part of me this much, and it’s just difficult now.

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