For You, With No Goodbye

Hi, the sunshine that smile every morning. This is for you, with no goodbye.

Pretending that "I'm fine" were never be this hard. I lost my focus on doing something's right, I messed everything's up my by own, I can't handle this complicated situations, and... I screwed up. Is it enough to show you that "I'm not okay"...?

As you said before, that good times can gone anytime, but moment stays forever. Well, somehow I wish "forever" is never exist. Because in some points, you're not value that-kind-of "just you and me againts the world" that much, right?

Somehow it feels like you're the things I did right. You're the sunshine that makes me happy even when the sky is grey. You're the best part of every beautiful song that I listen to. You're the man who bring me calm in my pretty crappy day. You're my late night conversation every night. You're the person that I've been thinking of at 2 a.m when I can't sleep.

But somehow it feels like that should not be you, the person who was taking care of me-and my complicated things. You're not the right person to laugh with, to have a deep conversations with, or to joke around with. You're not the missing part of my favourite songs. You're not the one that I've been waiting for so long.

You may not be pushing me away, but you're not fighting to keep me either. I'm dying to know what's going on with you, but I'm afraid to find out. Somehow I need to escape into that strange city, and wish that the distance will do us apart. Ya, somehow the best way to appreciate something is to be without it for a while. 

We just need a time to breathe, trust, let go, and see what happen. Time will heal. Time will show either this is worth this suffers, worth this wait, or worth fighting for. Just because, time has a lot to do with everything. Right?

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Rahajeng Kartika said...

sabar miftaa, semoga lancar ya semut jingga nya, banyak orderan ya.. ^^

miftah faradisa said...

aamiin...makasih bu... :D